There's nothing good about it. Over the next week, I checked flight costs religiously like I always did. Please don't argue with me on this one, Reddit. I realized I had an addiction to sugar and I had a addiction to food in general. Just his presence… made me feel fat and unattractive. You're worth less, people assume you're lazy, stupid, and incompetent.
In many ways I grew up invisible and alone.
The Great Weight Debate: Is It OK to Be Fat?
When you first start gaining, I've learned you really don't realize it's happening especially if you're dealing with other issues. The more you move around, the more energy you use. I can live longer without food. Then I started seeing veins on the top of my hands, which also led to my forearms after many months. So, what does it feel like to be an unattractive woman?